A Message From My Child of Light

A Message From My Child of Light

Lately, I’ve been curious as to how our Children of Light are here to support those of us who are healers and space holders.

What I’m learning is that we’re definitely not alone in the work that we’re meant to do.  Our Light Children are here to take an active role in participating in our personal healing and our healing work.  This came through so strongly in a message I received from my son, Bodhi as I asked how our Light Children are here to support us.  His reply is below.

“We have chosen this work with you to assist in the spiritual healing of this planet through the wombs of our earth mothers.

It is where they create life and where healing begins.

Through the womb is where the energy of healing is birthed.

We work with you in sending out the vibrations of your energy field through the realms within which you choose to work.

Think of us as an extension of you, for that is what we are.

As we both chose this journey to expand through the portal of both life and death, we are here to do our work in Spirit, through you.

Think of a utensil that you would use in the kitchen.  With your own hands you can do so much, but add a spoon, whisk or grater and together, magic is made!

We are that extension.

We agreed that this experience would be your awakening and so it has on many levels.

Now you are entering a whole new experience by offering your gift of healing to others.

As you now have invited me to journey with you, I stand by your side and together our work is witnessed and fulfilled.

The same will be true with each woman who chooses to work within our energy field.

First, she must know her own healing and then with her Child of Light, as you say, together their healing work will spread across the planet.

Through the earth.

Across lifetimes.

Through ancestral lines.

Out through the cosmos.

There is no end in sight, for as we work in earth form and spirit form, all will know peace in their own way.

Light fields are expanded forwards and backwards across light fields.

When you choose to work with us, our light expands through portals of healing.

So, yes.  You wonder how we support you?

It is through the work of lifetimes together that you have chosen to awaken and heal with us, as a part of your experience and then, to expand your healing work beyond what can be imagined.

Yet trust.

And so it is.”

 

(In case you’re curious, often times our Children of Light present themselves as energy when they connect with me.  The image above is how Bodhi came through to me in this channeling.)

 

Tracey Swainson is a Reiki healer/teacher and intuitive mentor, passionate about supporting healers, space holders and intuitive business women, as they heal their heartache of pregnancy loss and the stories that may have been created due to the emotional trauma of their loss. She brings healing both to the spiritual and emotional bodies through intimate, sacred, supportive one on one sessions. It was the emotional and spiritual healing of her own pregnancy loss experiences that fully birthed her into this sacred work. Tracey guides women through their healing journey and holds space for them to awaken to and connect with their Children of Light, so they can birth their powerful work into the world.  Connect with Tracey via link tree and subscribe to her mailing list to receive monthly doses of heart-centered notes. https://linktr.ee/traceyswainson
Some Things Take Time

Some Things Take Time

𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄.
Some things take time to Heal.
Some things take time to Root.
Time to Grow.
To Blossom. To Bloom.
𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞.
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It takes time to Grieve.
It takes time to Let Go.
𝘐𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘎𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘣𝘺𝘦.
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Its ok to give yourself Time.
Time to Cry.
Time to Mourn.
Time to Reconcile.
Time to Forgive.
Time to Release.
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Be Gentle with Yourself.
You will make Peace with loss.
You will find Joy in the little things.
You will learn to Love again.
𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞.
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Yet, know this…
𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐄𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡. 𝐑𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐞. 𝐑𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐍𝐨𝐰. 𝐄𝐱𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐀𝐬 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐀𝐫𝐞.💗
Tracey Swainson is a Reiki healer/teacher and intuitive mentor, passionate about supporting healers and space holders as they heal their heartache of pregnancy loss and the stories that may have been created due to the emotional trauma of their loss. She brings healing both to the spiritual and emotional bodies through intimate, sacred, supportive one on one sessions. It was the emotional and spiritual healing of her own pregnancy loss experiences that fully birthed her into this sacred work. Tracey guides women through their healing journey and holds space for them to awaken to and connect with their Child of Light, so they can birth their powerful work into the world Connect with Tracey via linktree and subscribe to her mailing list to receive monthly doses of heart-centered notes. https://linktr.ee/traceyswainson
To all the Childless Mothers

To all the Childless Mothers

I see you.

You move through life with a brave face.

Hiding your pain deep inside.

You ache for others to know that you too, are a mother.

You feel a sense of intense grief of having empty arms with no child to fill them.

You feel invisible in a world of mothers and grandmothers, seen and yet not seen.

You cringe when asked “How many children do you have?”

And you wonder, ‘do I tell them?’

Maybe you choose to say that you have no children but then you heart aches, as only you know the truth.

It takes so much energy to share that you are a mother of pregnancy loss.

You long to say ‘Yes!’ ‘I’m a mother too!’ You long to acknowledge your children, but will they understand? Will you be met once again with a very awkward silence?

There may be no right or wrong answer, accept to trust your heart.

I am here to say, I acknowledge you.

I see you as the mother you are.

I am with you.

I too, am a childless mother. I’ve had five pregnancy losses. I’ve also had the joy of connecting with my spirit baby that showed me that he passed through my body each time.

His name is Bodhi Sean.

It took me so many years to reach this place. To say that I am a mother. To feel a sense of peace, connection and belonging.

My spirit baby became the vessel of my personal healing journey, and for that I am so grateful.

I wish the same peace for you too.

So, dear childless mother, no matter where you are on your healing journey, all I ask is that you learn to be gentle with yourself.  If you choose to claim to your world that you are a mother too, I stand beside you and claim that for you.  If it feels too much, and it feels better to keep this close to your heart, I honor that within you too.

Whatever you choose, remember this, you belong.

You are a mother too.

 

My clients seek to honor their grief and to show up in their world feeling at peace, deeply connected and full of joy. They may be on a spiritual path or are awakening through their grief healing journey, either way, they’ve come to a point where they desire to be supported and come home home to their soul.  If this feels like you, click here to book a 20-minute session and let’s see if we’re a good fit!

 

Tracey Swainson is a Reiki healer/teacher and intuitive mentor, passionate about supporting healers and space holders as they heal their heartache of pregnancy loss and the stories that may have been created due to the emotional trauma of their loss. She brings healing both to the spiritual and emotional bodies through intimate, sacred, supportive one on one sessions. It was the emotional and spiritual healing of her own pregnancy loss experiences that fully birthed her into this sacred work. Tracey guides women through their healing journey and holds space for them to awaken to and connect with their Child of Light, so they can birth their powerful work into the world Connect with Tracey via linktree and subscribe to her mailing list to receive monthly doses of heart-centered notes. https://linktr.ee/traceyswainson
The Many Faces of Grief

The Many Faces of Grief

What do you think of when you think of grief?

How does it make you feel?

Can you spot a grieving person when you pass them on the street?

Maybe.

Sometimes.

Not always.

All too often in life, we do not have the space to fully grieve. We many not have the understanding or the knowledge to move through the waves of emotion that want to flow through us and so we bury our grief deep inside.

You might have thought that you didn’t want to talk about it because it was so crushingly painful, you’re not sure if you could function.

Maybe you don’t have a supportive person in your life that you feel safe enough to process that level of grief with.

 

 

And so, you push it down in hopes that one day the pain will virtually disappear.

I can relate in many ways.  For far too long, I buried my grief deep inside.  Desperately hoping that one day my heartache would simply dissipate.

The truth is, it didn’t.

I could function normally.  I could laugh, and love and embrace moments in each day but when the darkness came, so did the many layers of my sadness.

No matter how hard I tried, my grief would find its way into many moments of my life.

As you can see, there are many faces to grief.

Grief can appear in tears and anxiety. It may look like envy or excitement. It can also look like fear, love or sympathy for another.

Yet, it is always there until the moment comes, that your soul cries out for something more.

In my case, it was JOY.  I had a deep, inner longing that came from the depths of my soul, that longing was joy.

When I came to the realization, that I simply didn’t want to go through life any longer carrying the weight of my grief, that is the moment that I surrendered.

I cried out to the Universe for help.

That help came in a variety of forms. New friends, a coach, reiki, a spiritual practice and finally, a connection with my spirit baby.

With the passing of days, weeks and months, I began to feel a sense of deep inner peace and eventually, I found JOY.

So, this is my question for you.  What unresolved grief are you holding on to?  Are you ready to let it go?

 

I’m an Intuitive Grief Mentor and I hold space for the emotional and spiritual well-being of people who are ready to experience grace through grief.

this resonates with you, then click the link below and let’s have a chat to see how I can support you further.

https://connection.as.me/

 

 

Tracey Swainson is a Reiki healer/teacher and intuitive mentor, passionate about supporting healers and space holders as they heal their heartache of pregnancy loss and the stories that may have been created due to the emotional trauma of their loss. She brings healing both to the spiritual and emotional bodies through intimate, sacred, supportive one on one sessions. It was the emotional and spiritual healing of her own pregnancy loss experiences that fully birthed her into this sacred work. Tracey guides women through their healing journey and holds space for them to awaken to and connect with their Child of Light, so they can birth their powerful work into the world Connect with Tracey via linktree and subscribe to her mailing list to receive monthly doses of heart-centered notes. https://linktr.ee/traceyswainson

 

Soul Whispers

Soul Whispers

How do we hear the whispers of our soul in the midst of deep, unprocessed grief?

 

 

It’s in those quiet moments.  The ones with no other distractions.  Its the feeling deep inside that yearns for peace.

The longing for the ecstasy of pure joy.

The desire for a new experience, adventure, career or to deepen our spiritual practice.

The yearning to belong.

We feel this in the stillness. We hear these whispers from deep inside.

The trouble with unresolved grief is that it takes up so much of our emotional capacity that it can be difficult to open up to what we truly long for.

 

Photo Credit: alexa-mazzarello

 

Through the grieving process, we sometimes begin to take on new beliefs.

Beliefs that tell us, Life is hard or I feel so broken. What if I’m not enough? Why did this happen to me? or It was so long ago, why should I bother trying?

These and many more statements are what we take on and over time, become blocks that keep us from feeling whole and complete.

This state of mind leaves us feeling broken and dis-empowered. However, as we open to our healing journey and begin to make peace with our past, we see that these are statements held in the midst of deep pain.

They are not truths.

We might feel out of alignment and this often becomes a journey of its own.  A seeking to know our truth.

As we become more aware, we begin to realize that we have not been listening to our heart-centered self, our soul.

An easy way to begin to make this shift is to start a gratitude practice.  Whether you write what you’re grateful for in a journal or consciously notice on waking in the morning what you’re grateful for, gratitude changes everything.

We slowly begin to notice the thoughts that used to be “Why did this happen to me?” shift to “Life is happening for me!”

This in itself is empowerment!

 

“In Stillness lives wisdom.
In Quiet you’ll find peace.
In Solitude, you’ll remember yourself.”
– Robin Sharma

Its so true; in the stillness we notice new feelings, thoughts or ideas that will lead us to discovering our true, authentic self.  We feel the sun begin to rise again within our being, with a new sense of joy.  We begin to remember!

 

 

my story of healing the heartache of pregnancy loss

 

 

When we are open to hearing the whispers of our soul, our long-buried emotions can become our greatest messengers of healing and emotional freedom, creating an opportunity to transform our grief and live a more empowered, fulfilling life.

As peace seekers, change makers, visionaries and creatives, we are here to share our medicine in a deep capacity and yet, as the saying goes, we cannot serve from an empty cup.  It is possible to create space for our inner healing and serve others, without losing the sacredness of the journey.  We must learn to sit in the stillness and listen to what is rising from deep within, so we may find our way to inner peace through our intuition, the whispers of our soul.

 

In Conclusion:  

Take some time over the next week to just get quiet.  Getting out in nature always works for me, but do what feels good for you.  In the stillness, allow yourself to be a witness to the whispers from your soul.  What do you long for? What changes are you ready to make? What are you inviting into your life?

 

 

Tracey Swainson is a Reiki healer/teacher and intuitive mentor, passionate about supporting healers and space holders as they heal their heartache of pregnancy loss and the stories that may have been created due to the emotional trauma of their loss. She brings healing both to the spiritual and emotional bodies through intimate, sacred, supportive one on one sessions. It was the emotional and spiritual healing of her own pregnancy loss experiences that fully birthed her into this sacred work. Tracey guides women through their healing journey and holds space for them to awaken to and connect with their Child of Light, so they can birth their powerful work into the world Connect with Tracey via linktree and subscribe to her mailing list to receive monthly doses of heart-centered notes. https://linktr.ee/traceyswainson
Holding Space for Grief Triggers

Holding Space for Grief Triggers

A smell, a memory, a photo, a song.

They can all bring up memories that trigger an emotional response of grief, fear, sadness and so much more.

Grief can come in waves, even years after the fact.  Splashing on the surface of our soul, opening us up to memories long past; reminding us of our own vulnerability and that our healing is not yet complete.

The loss of a parent, child, spouse, pet, a baby – born or unborn; can drop us to our knees. Just as we think we’ve made peace with our loss, a new reminder lands on the shore of our heart, breaking us open once again. Reminding us that there is more healing to be done.

When we don’t have the space or the emotional ability to process our grief, we all too often bury it deep inside.

We grieve within the capacity that we are able to in the moment.  For some, it may take months and for others, like myself, it may take years.

Grief Triggers

 

These triggers arise, as reminders that there is something inside of us that we have not yet made peace with.

A question that often comes my way is: What can I do when I’m emotionally triggered and how do I handle the emotions that arise?

One of the first things you can do is RECOGNIZE YOUR TRIGGER

Ask yourself these questions….

What are my triggers?

What emotion is being activated?

Where do I feel this emotion in my body?

Does it have a color, shape or size?

Close your eyes and intuitively feel where this emotion resides within your body.  By giving yourself the space to take a step back and identify this feeling, you’re immediately able to ground and center your energy.

Grief Triggers

Next, CREATE SOME SPACE TO REFLECT

There are many practices that can support your reflection, one them in journaling.

I love to journal.  Journaling has absolutely been a life saver for me.  So, if this feels safe for you, I invite you to sit down and begin let your thoughts flow through your pen.

Take a deep breath and ask yourself some simple questions to get started and soon, you’ll find that your words are flowing.

Here are a few simple journal prompts that may be helpful to get you started:

My grief triggers are _____________________ and this is why they still produce these emotions inside of me _________.

My favorite memory of you is ___________________ and this is why __________________.

Even after all this time, I still find it difficult to say your name aloud and this is why _______________.

I’m going to honor you by _____________________.

 

FIND YOUR COMMUNITY

Grief is a lonely place to be and now more than ever, we need a supportive community to share our sorrow.  Whether you surround yourself with family and friends, seek a professional, counselor, healer or join a grief circle; there is strength in community.

In the days of our ancestors, our people would surround us.  We would not face our grief alone.  Yet today, we live in a culture where the emotions of grief are simply not accepted.  We’re encouraged to get back to work without having had time to grieve. We hide our emotions away and close off our heart, for fear of what others might say.

My story healing the heartache of pregnancy loss

HONORING OUR GRIEF THROUGH RITUAL

Francis Weller states in his book, “The Wild Edge of Sorrow” that “Ritual provides the elements necessary to help transform whatever it is we are carrying in our psyches.”

I’ve found this to be true over and over again.  Ritual is an essential part of our life and whether you’re aware of it or not, you probably have several that support your daily existence.  From rising in the morning and making your bed, showering and brushing your teeth.  These are simple tasks that you perform without even thinking of it and yet, without it, you may not function to the best of your ability throughout your day.

Healing rituals for grief are equally important for your mental, emotional and spiritual well-being; they can be as simple or as complex as you desire.  Grief rituals can be deeply supportive when you get hit by those triggers that seemingly “come out of nowhere.”

They exist to help navigate the rites of passage that we move through at different phases of our life, one of them being the loss of a loved one.  They create a container that allow you to channel your grief in a safe and sacred way.

Its important to set the intention that this ritual is being created to honor you and to release any grief that may still be stored within your body.

Rituals can be creative too.  Whether you are an artist or not, get out some paints, markers or even your kids’ crayons and let your emotions flow through you.

Your ritual may be as simple as lighting a candle in honor of your loved one. It may be taking a deep breath and releasing it with love. It may be going for a run, hike, walk or even doing yoga and letting those emotions be expressed through the expansiveness of your bodies’ movement.  You may choose to make a favorite meal, or celebrate your loved ones birthday.

Whatever it might be, it comes from your heart and honors you as you continue on your healing journey.

Grief Triggers

THE SACREDNESS OF GRIEF

It literally took me years to know this but there is a sacredness to grief.

Grief grants us the gift of compassion, for ourselves and others.  It offers us the gift of inner strength that we may never have known without this experience. We learn of forgiveness, grace and joy.  And, most importantly, we learn that even from the ashes, we are able to RISE.

 

 

Tracey Swainson is a Reiki healer/teacher and intuitive mentor, passionate about supporting healers and space holders as they heal their heartache of pregnancy loss and the stories that may have been created due to the emotional trauma of their loss. She brings healing both to the spiritual and emotional bodies through intimate, sacred, supportive one on one sessions. It was the emotional and spiritual healing of her own pregnancy loss experiences that fully birthed her into this sacred work. Tracey guides women through their healing journey and holds space for them to awaken to and connect with their Child of Light, so they can birth their powerful work into the world Connect with Tracey via linktree and subscribe to her mailing list to receive monthly doses of heart-centered notes. https://linktr.ee/traceyswainson.